I started my blog because I wanted to write and put my ideas out there, but I’m stuck. Granted, I’ve only been at it for three days, but I’m blank as to what to write about. All my thoughts are in fragments, and nothing goes past two lines until I start pressing my backspace button like I’m crazy, as if to wipe out all evidence of my helplessness.
Browsing through other blogs does not help. There is such good stuff out there, and reading them just makes me realize how inept I am, how stupid I was to even think I could blog. I know I should just be happy I have the opportunity to do something like this, and stop being an idiot about it, but all those thoughts just stay in the back of my head and refrain from comforting me. Idiots.
Bottom line: I’m terrified. I have always wanted to be heard, but when I get an opportunity to do exactly that, I don’t know what to say. I haven’t found my voice yet, and I’m afraid I never will.
I don’t know what I want, and all I can hope is that I know when I see it and hold onto it for dear life. Until then, I will fumble through this blog, and hopefully make a few friends along the way.
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